January 2nd 2011

Marked the two year anniversary for me writing and posting on Seascape Chronicles. What this should have been was a very big moment for me. What you would have expected was me posting post after post after post. However, this was not the case.

I am thinking back to January, it seems like a decade has passed already yet it was only a month. I always prided myself on my extremely sharp memory. Last month at the beginning of January I remember being extremely anxious and especially not excited about going back to work after the long weekend and prior to that nice Christmas holiday with Jason. To make matters worse I thought I would make an attempt to quit smoking for the 4 or 5th time in the past ten years and make it my NY Resolution that I am sure would be even more fun to make stick.

I had no time to focus on my blog, yes given it was a Sunday….my anxiety was through the roof. I wanted a cigarette, I did not want to go back to work. So in the meantime I probably played with my new toy that Jason got me (my IPAD) trying to ignore my anxiety level, read one of my free literary classics I newly downloaded through IBOOKS and attempt to relax.

So that was how I marked my 2 yr anniversary of Seascapechronicles. By lying on the couch anxiously trying to concentrate on the words in front of me. It was DAY 2 at the time of quitting smoking. Currently I am on day…43? Maybe. I am not certain. It was not a big deal not celebrating or posting on this particular day. It was that I continued to not post for quite some time. Until now. I have been extremely busy. Yet writing, blogging and sharing my thoughts with all of you is what I love. And sometimes I forget that. I start to fade. I hope that I remember what I do need to celebrate in life, the little things like this that make me happy.

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