It is a dreary, rainy day here in Northeast Florida. Despite the weekend’s crummy weather, I am in good spirits, and rather productive for a Sunday morning. This weekend I caught up on several loads of clean, unfolded laundry, cleaned several rooms in the house (including the massive dumpster fire of Hazel’s room), cooked a roast chicken, took the girls to bball and cheer, did a semi-fabulous mani-pedi on myself, and even had time to binge watch an entire mini-series. Today, I awoke early, straightening up my study and putting things away. I am feeling rested, despite 5-6 hrs of sleep. I think the lounging Sat evening was much needed.
This past week I submitted my first application for admission to grad school. Was it my best foot forward, not sure. With the early admission competition I wanted to make sure I had everything submitted by end of the month. Supposedly, I will hear a decision in the next couple weeks and then take steps either towards other program applications that I have begun or not.
Work has been extremely busy lately. We have interns assisting us, more programs than I can keep up with, more and more volunteer inquiries. More registration forms, procedures, changes, etc. I love what I do whole-heartedly. I hope to spend some time today reviewing my inbox and playing catch-up. It is so rewarding working with NAMI Jax, I hope that it is all making an impact in some way.
This week I also had therapy. I worked on a new process to me, mostly addressing the impulsivity symptoms I still heavily experience. This new way of addressing my impulsiveness has helped, even as soon as the past few days. Taking a step back, trying to identify the cause and the thought behind it. Analyzing further and discovering, what would I rather be doing if not this? This was a fascinating concept. I am practicing some of that with journaling and blogging. Also attempting to read more in lieu of other bad habits, ie., browsing the internet, fb, etc, or eating a box of Italian cookies. I have vowed to become more active. It is raining here and chilly as I already mentioned. My goal is to go on a short walk regardless. Do some light stretching, lifting and movement in the garage afterwards. I CAN DO THIS. I will do this . There’s no day like today to change a habit. I have come this far, I cannot quit.
So today’s goal, get out and get moving in the shitty Florida chilly weather. If I can do it today, every day will get easier and easier. If it doesn’t happen I wont be hard on myself, I will desire to work even harder to accomplish my goals. This time of year, my daughter Hazel, was born in 2016. That year after giving birth, I weighed over 300 lbs. I made a commitment that FEB/MAR timeframe to get healthy. I lost over 150 lbs over the course of a year and half. I don’t expect the same kind of success now, but I can make an effort to be consistent and motivated. So despite my verbal acknowledgments already, it is time to put action behind it. I am ready to make a change.
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