Spent the weekend away in Orlando. It couldn’t have come at a better time. Now that I am home, relaxed, and back in my pillow nest on my thinking chair. I am tired from the trip, but mentally reset. I am happy that I was able to spend time with my co-workers, get away from the hustle and bustle. On top of that I indulged in some amazing food, had amazing sleep, and feeling like I am now making more progress.

Had a great appointment with my therapist before leaving town. I told her I was ready to delve more into trauma therapy and address the untreated trauma. We practice a trauma timeline, a method in the early parts of EMDR treatment. I no longer want to run away. I want to face the realities of my past. I feel more prepared to tackle it now.

On top of that I am going into my fourth week of IOP. It has been difficult at times, but generally I am hoping to discharge at the end of the week. I have made a ton of progress towards recovery. Some of what I have learned will take practice. Some of you might not have even noticed, but I took some of our discussions to personal reflection here.

I am grateful for the support of my family and friends. I am able to almost see and process things on a normal basis. I know the process of recovery is a slippery slope. It is also cyclical and always changing. For me, this process has been tiresome and trying to maintain is difficult in and of itself. Pausing, listening, reflecting, breathe. This has been on my mind lately. Off I go to bed, hoping fore more rest than my 8 hrs last night. And another bust week ahead.

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