I managed to keep it together for a rather busy day. I did some work early on. Got hazel out the door (Ella I found out later has strep throat). Met virtually with my psychiatrist and IOP in the morning. Took Ella to urgent care, attempted to fill her Rx of antibiotics twice. Took Ella to get some food, took her home. Picked up Hazel from school. Also, Hazel had an accident in her bed overnight so I spent the early morning not only getting her ready but scrubbing her mattress and washing her sheets. After picking up Hazel I successfully filled her antibiotic. Took Hazel home, and gave Ella her medicine. Had about 30-40 minutes to do some chores around the house. I made some GAL calls and emails. Then it was time to take Hazel to practice. Made an appearance at the high school girls lax practice to help the Goalie. Went back to pick up hazel by 7:30pm. Had dinner, made more calls for NAMI program leaders. By 8:30 all I want to do is sit. But here I am now finally relaxed and have taken my nightly meds. Hopefully tomorrow isn’t as totally insane. I feel that I am now better equipped to manage days like this. This is a normal chaotic day for me. Now I will blog, read for a few minutes…that is all I have time to do for self-care tonight. Is it enough? Probably not. I will try to fit in more the rest of the week. I hope to get up early enough tomorrow for a short walk. In the meantime, I am pretty exhausted and ready to sleep. I am ok. No need to be too concerned. I am a mom, wife, military spouse and used to doing certain things. I can handle it…but I hope to get more used to saying no. Extending those boundaries to protect myself. In the meantime. It will get easier with time.
The Seascapechronicles 