Historically, I always dread this time of year. The time of cooling temps, many storms, and generally never knowing what is to come next. As Hurricane Ian approaches the state, even without a direct impact on Jacksonville later this week, it will for sure bring plenty of rain. I am not fearful this time, or worried. I will take it step by step in preparation. The rest is outside my control. It is taking longer than expected to heal from this latest bout of illness. Even so I am not anxious, meds are working pretty well. I leave it in the hands of God, and hope that we fare ok. A wise friend recently has been supportive and understanding. I know I deserve this, deep down. I am working as hard as I ever have to stay well. It seems that I still have occasional flare ups of emotions. That I am allowing myself to feel. I write these thoughts down, and let them pass through me. I validate them and release. As tempting as some of my negative coping skills have been in the past, I am proud that I have steered clear. I am feeling much better as we move through the tail end of hurricane season. Hopefully with this being the last storm in my path.

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