I have been neglecting Seascape for some time, and need to change that. Just an update on life in general, it is exciting, grueling at times, work is incredibly time consuming, extracurricular activities for the kids is in full swing for the spring. Frankly, I am a little over done. So today, I scheduled a “day” for myself. Yes I have some work appointments here and there. All in all, I took a time out for me. Currently as I write I am having a nice cold ice water and salad at Outback Steakhouse. Early February in Florida is sweltering hot and humid. Seems to be about time to pack up the boots and sweaters for now. I sit and collect myself. Enjoying the quiet atmosphere, and a chance to slow down.

Kids are at school and afterwards Boys and Girls club after-care. They do homework, activities, even fed dinner daily! Jason is enjoying terminal leave and time off in general. I left him in charge of Chloe as I left the house late this morning after a virtual court case I took from my office at home. I am grateful for my current work that I can have a flexible schedule and work from home a couple days a week.

Back to the purpose of this post. I desperately needed a moment to myself. These days, my only time to myself is at 6am in the morning lifting weights at Planet Fitness. I still went to the gym, came home and tended to the girls and got them to school on time today. Worked from home, and have been out and about with some appts, and general much needed errands. There is no shame in needing to take time. To reconnect, rejuvenate and relax. Nor is there no reason to explain why its necessary. The week has been challenging, yes. But not chaotic or impossible. I am glad that I have the self-awareness lately to check in with myself and know when and where my limitations are, when I need to step back. Today is that day. I am forever thankful to my support system and those around me who are so kind to remind me of my humanity. As jason loves to tell me, “Don’t spread yourself to thin.” I am cognizant of these needs, and remember that I do live with a condition that inhibits my ability to function as well at times. I try with every ounce of my being to protect that first and foremost. My trauma therapist has me pick a card from the deck essentially after every session. The latest one I picked and sits on my car dashboard…says “Love Yourself First.” I am reminded daily and know deep down to keep myself mentally well and physically well. This lunch, the peace and quiet, and the general time to myself is so essential. I hope that all my followers and friends remember to take the time you need for your own self care. Take the damn trip, check in with yourself, do something for yourself, give yourself the good treatment it deserves.

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