I am not here to prove a point. I am going off the map. Take what you will from this. Uncharted territory. I know I can do this. I am choosing myself this time. I choose you.
Month: April 2023
Coach SG closes out another FIGL Lax season
Coaching is something that comes easy to me. I love working one on one with youths involved in sports. It is such an important outlet socially. It provides a sense of leadership, teamwork, and confidence. I have watched these pre-teen girl laxers grow and excel at the sport. The most impactful part of volunteering as … Continue reading Coach SG closes out another FIGL Lax season
Theme Park
I mentioned in a previous post, equating my current state of affairs as being on a non-stop roller coaster that I couldn’t get off. I will say that today, I liken my moods more to a theme park. I read a quote that struck me: “There will be good days, bad days, light days and … Continue reading Theme Park
“Truth never damages a cause that is just”-Mahatma Gandhi
I will let others know as a precursor to the material in this post—It is heavy, and could be triggering. The quote above is one I chose today, a quote on any other day would not strike me. I chose it from a bowl in front of me to take one—at a woman’s funeral service … Continue reading “Truth never damages a cause that is just”-Mahatma Gandhi
Braver than you know
When I think about this or that occurrence in my life, I have not ever equated such with a brave choice or necessarily the right decision. Seeing other people around me being brave made me want to be as courageous. As days pass, I find myself going through the motions, taking the next step. I … Continue reading Braver than you know
More sleep= better days
The past two nights Ive had upwards of 7 hours of sleep. As a result the past couple of days have been filled with more focus and less anxiety. I have subsequently had good days at home and a nice weekend. Yesterday was Jasons birthday. I worked from home, and did some chores. Cleaned the … Continue reading More sleep= better days
The power inside
Lately I have had trouble staying asleep. I am still getting somewhere between 5-7 hours of sleep. Not enough. My body and mind are very powerful when lack of sleep sets in. I take my sleeping med and get into bed around 9/30pm. Like clockwork I am awake by 2am, naturally. I am working so … Continue reading The power inside
Sarah’s Self care Saturday
I had an amazing day taking care of my needs on Saturday. It was much needed and happy that hubby took the kids to a birthday party. Started off the day early with a trip to Starbucks with the girls. We came home and I waved goodbye to the home and off to commence Sarah’s … Continue reading Sarah’s Self care Saturday
You are a Queen
Someone wise once told me, “ I have never heard of a Queen that has been walked over.” It took a few seconds for this statement to sink in. My immediate reflection would be at the time, well, that is certainly not me. My negative self talk and self-perception have always been powerful and strong … Continue reading You are a Queen
Grounded
This week has been incredibly difficult. I am working more diligently on meditation and grounding techniques to get through the day. Working harder to apply various techniques from trauma-focused therapy and strategies gained over the years. First I am getting better on identifying the thought, catching it and releasing said thought before it ruminates. I … Continue reading Grounded
Steady as she goes.
One of my favorite lyrics from a Dave Matthews song. I have struggled lately with my mental health. I have been proactive and somehow managing through a second week of consistent hypomania. It has not pervaded my work functioning or other responsibilities. Admittedly I have struggled to stay above water. I am constantly checking in, … Continue reading Steady as she goes.
An Ode to Paige-my loyal bestie
Have you ever found the friend in your life who makes your life complete? I have. Over 21 years ago. An unlikely match of friendship, has blossomed into the person in my life whose opinion I value more than anything, who remains my biggest fan, a woman of quick wit and a sharp tongue, superb … Continue reading An Ode to Paige-my loyal bestie
Easter Vigil and Jason’s Confirmation
Yesterday we celebrated Easter Vigil at St. Catherine of Sienna Church. Jason and I have been attending RCIA since Fall 2022. Today was an incredibly extraordinary day not just because of Jason’s Confirmation and my re-entrance into the church after many years. In the Catholic faith this Mass is sacred and recognizes and reaffirms our … Continue reading Easter Vigil and Jason’s Confirmation
Sarbear check-in
Often times when I reflect on myself, it is struggle to identify the cause of continuous negative sense of self worth. With any analysis, the first instinct or reaction is to naturally say what or how did this happen? What changed, what caused this event or series of chain reactions? Our investigatory nature feeds on … Continue reading Sarbear check-in
Backwards progress
Today was an extremely long, grueling day. Started the morning off with an early morning workout with a friend. Worked from home and took a break to stop by the church for a meeting with the priest to discuss some upcoming events and getting our marriage blessed. Jason will be officially confirmed Catholic on Saturday’s … Continue reading Backwards progress
The Seascapechronicles 