The world in my seascape. The chronicles of my world.
Month: May 2023
Today I sit back, humbly as I think about this day. Memorial Day. I am afforded certain comforts of this world. Much to the thanks of our great country and our military. I never forget, for an instant, the life I lead as a military spouse of a retired combat veteran. More importantly so, the … Continue reading Freedom
What it means to me to be a mom. It is the most rewarding, gut-wrenching, anxiety-ridden, and soul changing experience that i have come to love. My girls. Ella and Hazel. Made me in part who I am today. Their love, their sweet words, can pierce my deepest sorrow on a dark day. Their eyes, … Continue reading To be a mom….Mother’s Day 2023
Yesterday I ran a 5k, my first road race in years. Was it glorious? For my mind yes, yes it was. For my body? No not really. In all of my efforts to build my endurance the past 6-8 months working out regularly…I was still a little ill prepared. I ran it, mostly. I finished. … Continue reading My glorious race return, or is it?
I am very excited to report that sleep patterns are tightening up, irritability, anxiety and other manic symptoms have subsided. I might have avoided a large drop off into a deep depression that usually occurs for me after a larger manic cycle as well. So far the medication overhaul and working with my psychiatrist outpatient … Continue reading Getting it done
This is the title of one of my favorite songs, by Norah Jones. Years ago, I would sing it as a lullaby to Ella as I rocked her to sleep. It is about searching for a sign in the sky, for a sign to shine down. Searching for the evasive Lonestar. I think about this … Continue reading Lonestar
Today I am returning to work, after two weeks of sick leave. Mixed feelings of nerves and excitement. The weekend was very relaxing and just what I needed. I am in a better place overall, the sleep still lighter average 6 hours, in addition to some day time napping. The anxiety is nearly non existent … Continue reading Off to work I go
Self- Talk is a large part of anyone’s life. Talking kindly to yourself is at the root of being brave. “We” constantly and subconsciously have thoughts running through our minds at any given time. I am learning to chuck the negative thoughts out the window. I stop myself in my tracks. The ones that cut … Continue reading SGs Real Talk and Self Care Saturday PII
I believe the mind is capable of both extraordinary things and surprises you as well with its ability to conform and process new information. I also believe these abilities can be veiled in negative consequences. For me one of those blessings/curses is my gift of a decent memory capacity, especially for long term memorization. As … Continue reading Identifying flaws and holes in time.
Today I had a really long and exhausting day. Which normally would have been a mundane mid week check in on a Wednesday night. Today I was released from the hospital after being hospitalized for psychiatric reasons. Prior to this I had a nearly 11 year stretch since my last hospitalization in 2012. I was … Continue reading Back again…
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