Spark

I have not felt inspired as of late to write. Partly due life getting in the way, the other being stuck in my own head. I awoke early this morning and felt the urge to do so. I have been on a doubled dose on one of my medications to manage my mental health condition for two months now. While I notice an overall improvement in some areas of my life, namely a more balanced mood, other areas have become more muddled. My creative spark for one. Another muddling, losing my social edge. I am usually a very sociable person, but have internalized and isolated myself to a degree. These two matters absolutely disheartens me. I am fighting through and know I can get to the other side of that. The spark is there today, and that is a good feeling to start the day.

In less than two months I start my master’s degree with Florida State University. It is terribly daunting, but something I have wanted for so so long that I am determined to not back down. Classes begin August 22nd. I cannot begin to tell you how excited I am to begin this journey of my MSW. In order to devote the time needed for school I know other things will have to give. The constant reminder I have, is to make sure I have time for the important things, my family, myself. Balance is always a struggle for me…but I cannot lose sight of that.

Every day lately, I wake up early. I go to the gym first thing around 530am. Most days at the gym I lift weights and do some light cardio. This routine while seemingly out of the ordinary, has provided me with enough energy throughout the day, but also exhausts my body enough to sleep soundly at night. My sleep habits have improved. I am getting restful and productive sleep.

In short, I am doing okay. With some fleeting thoughts, and managing as I can with work and family obligations. I feel good knowing that I am getting back to where I need to be and where I want to be. The spark may return or stay. Either way I am here for it and looking forward to the many exciting days ahead.