Not the books or TV Show from Nickelodeon. My younger self loved these books and got a kick out of any horror flick. My adult self has never been able to navigate scary, thriller or horror genres.

I mentioned in a previous post that I am adaptable. A shape shifter, a chameleon. My sense of self has possibly always been afraid. Afraid of my truth. Afraid of being comfortable with myself. I have been running from myself and who Sarah Ellen truly is, my entire life.

I am hopeful that I can make some adjustments. I want so badly to be the woman I think I can become. I am tired of running from what haunts me, I am tired. I am prepared for today, for the next step whatever that may look like. I am not afraid, I will be brave and face the music.

I have alot of work to do. I am willing and ready. I am not giving up. I choose myself, I choose my family. I choose to do what I need to, to live my truth.

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