I am flawed and not perfect, and I have made mistakes. I am also resilient, and kind. I am enough, I am worthy exactly as I am. Negativety has flooded my life lately, in one form or another. I have walked through more fires before and I am still here. Someone I once considered close … Continue reading The path forward
Author: seascape228
A Safe Place to Land
This duet by Sarah Bareilles and John Legend is one of my favorites. “The ocean is wild and over your head and the boat beneath you is sinkin’. Don’t need room for your bags Hope is all that you have. Say the Lord’s prayer twice Hold your babies tight, Surely someone will reach out a … Continue reading A Safe Place to Land
The past decade
Today marks a special occassion. My youngest, sweetest, happy-go-lucky little girl turns 10 years old today, February 9th 2026. I dont know where the time has gone, it is certainly fleeting. My dear Hazel is fond of barbies, the color yellow, slime, legos, roblox, and maybe her favorite past time, boardgames and puzzles. She plays … Continue reading The past decade
Are you Afraid of the Dark
Not the books or TV Show from Nickelodeon. My younger self loved these books and got a kick out of any horror flick. My adult self has never been able to navigate scary, thriller or horror genres. I mentioned in a previous post that I am adaptable. A shape shifter, a chameleon. My sense of … Continue reading Are you Afraid of the Dark
Calling the Shots
Lately, my life has been disheveled. If only powerful men faced the same scrutiny as women do in life... then maybe, just maybe, the world would have a chance to get better. I chose my path in my own personal life, and I accept what will happen, because I am holding myself accountable. I have … Continue reading Calling the Shots
Blue Light Glasses
Reducing the exposure. My eyes are hurting, I’ve always adapted. Some would say I am a chamaleon. That I can survive any environment. I have been willing to compromise my identity, create new surroundings from nothing. I have perfect vision, once told that my vision was so good I had depth perception. It is probably … Continue reading Blue Light Glasses
The Space to Become
History as we experience it, is bound to repeat itself. When it comes to my own life, I simply hope to protect my health, my family and my future path. Now, I strive to ensure that my own past cycles are not repeated. I have always been empathetic, aiming to keep others either happy, sometimes … Continue reading The Space to Become
As one door closes.
Child advocacy, guardian ad Litem, volunteer, trauma
What I have learned from the psychiatric unit
The psychiatric unit. It’s seen as a place of despair, a stereotypical “looney bin”, a mad house, a dark place that people go when things feel impossible. Over the last 20 years that I have actively engaged in mental health treatment, I have been in often rotating or long term stints at these units for … Continue reading What I have learned from the psychiatric unit
Lingering Heat and Fading Summer
It seems Summer 2025 is fading away and as it does, heatwaves rage on in Jacksonville,Florida. The heat index today was 117 degrees, 97 degrees Fahrenheit in Orange Park, on the west side, just inland of the city. I spent the afternoon smack dab in the prime wrath of today’s heatwave, visiting children on my … Continue reading Lingering Heat and Fading Summer
Objects are closer than they appear
Last night I attended a NAMI Connection Recovery Support Group meeting, after not having been in person for a couple months. I was greeted cordially with hugs and smiles by familiar faces. At the meeting I shared about how exercise and nutrition has been consistently improved over time as I continue to lose weight due … Continue reading Objects are closer than they appear
What they see matters
Hazel had a spring chorus concert today at her elementary school. It was super sweet to hear their little voices and see the effort they put into rehearsals. Hazel stood out, projecting and singing so clearly that at times her voice was the only recognizable sound. We got home and reminisced about the many performances … Continue reading What they see matters
Chasing the unstoppable
It’s not for lack of things to say or write. I could come up with more than a few reasons to have disappeared into this unstoppable world around me. I feel as though I am always struggling to catch up and keep pace with my surroundings. So as change each day occurs, I am chasing … Continue reading Chasing the unstoppable
Pisces Season and the epic birthday month celebration
It is still technically Pisces season, well into March. But alas, my epic birthday month has come to an end. It included two birthday karaoke celebrations with my girlfriends, co-workers party, family party, pre-oscars birthday festivities, and one hell of a way to turn fourty-one years old. So many friends near and far made the … Continue reading Pisces Season and the epic birthday month celebration
Is this the real life?: The Skins playoff run
The Commanders, or “Redskins” as many fans still call them, are heading to the NFC Championship game of the 2024-25 NFL season. It is an extremely surreal time to be a Skins fan, with Rookie QB Jayden Daniels leading the team its first NFC championship game since the 1991 season. As a kid in the … Continue reading Is this the real life?: The Skins playoff run
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