The world in my seascape. The chronicles of my world.
Author: seascape228
This is the title of one of my favorite songs, by Norah Jones. Years ago, I would sing it as a lullaby to Ella as I rocked her to sleep. It is about searching for a sign in the sky, for a sign to shine down. Searching for the evasive Lonestar. I think about this … Continue reading Lonestar
Today I am returning to work, after two weeks of sick leave. Mixed feelings of nerves and excitement. The weekend was very relaxing and just what I needed. I am in a better place overall, the sleep still lighter average 6 hours, in addition to some day time napping. The anxiety is nearly non existent … Continue reading Off to work I go
Self- Talk is a large part of anyone’s life. Talking kindly to yourself is at the root of being brave. “We” constantly and subconsciously have thoughts running through our minds at any given time. I am learning to chuck the negative thoughts out the window. I stop myself in my tracks. The ones that cut … Continue reading SGs Real Talk and Self Care Saturday PII
I believe the mind is capable of both extraordinary things and surprises you as well with its ability to conform and process new information. I also believe these abilities can be veiled in negative consequences. For me one of those blessings/curses is my gift of a decent memory capacity, especially for long term memorization. As … Continue reading Identifying flaws and holes in time.
Today I had a really long and exhausting day. Which normally would have been a mundane mid week check in on a Wednesday night. Today I was released from the hospital after being hospitalized for psychiatric reasons. Prior to this I had a nearly 11 year stretch since my last hospitalization in 2012. I was … Continue reading Back again…
I am not here to prove a point. I am going off the map. Take what you will from this. Uncharted territory. I know I can do this. I am choosing myself this time. I choose you.
Coaching is something that comes easy to me. I love working one on one with youths involved in sports. It is such an important outlet socially. It provides a sense of leadership, teamwork, and confidence. I have watched these pre-teen girl laxers grow and excel at the sport. The most impactful part of volunteering as … Continue reading Coach SG closes out another FIGL Lax season
I mentioned in a previous post, equating my current state of affairs as being on a non-stop roller coaster that I couldn’t get off. I will say that today, I liken my moods more to a theme park. I read a quote that struck me: “There will be good days, bad days, light days and … Continue reading Theme Park
I will let others know as a precursor to the material in this post—It is heavy, and could be triggering. The quote above is one I chose today, a quote on any other day would not strike me. I chose it from a bowl in front of me to take one—at a woman’s funeral service … Continue reading “Truth never damages a cause that is just”-Mahatma Gandhi
When I think about this or that occurrence in my life, I have not ever equated such with a brave choice or necessarily the right decision. Seeing other people around me being brave made me want to be as courageous. As days pass, I find myself going through the motions, taking the next step. I … Continue reading Braver than you know
The past two nights Ive had upwards of 7 hours of sleep. As a result the past couple of days have been filled with more focus and less anxiety. I have subsequently had good days at home and a nice weekend. Yesterday was Jasons birthday. I worked from home, and did some chores. Cleaned the … Continue reading More sleep= better days
Lately I have had trouble staying asleep. I am still getting somewhere between 5-7 hours of sleep. Not enough. My body and mind are very powerful when lack of sleep sets in. I take my sleeping med and get into bed around 9/30pm. Like clockwork I am awake by 2am, naturally. I am working so … Continue reading The power inside
I had an amazing day taking care of my needs on Saturday. It was much needed and happy that hubby took the kids to a birthday party. Started off the day early with a trip to Starbucks with the girls. We came home and I waved goodbye to the home and off to commence Sarah’s … Continue reading Sarah’s Self care Saturday
Someone wise once told me, “ I have never heard of a Queen that has been walked over.” It took a few seconds for this statement to sink in. My immediate reflection would be at the time, well, that is certainly not me. My negative self talk and self-perception have always been powerful and strong … Continue reading You are a Queen
This week has been incredibly difficult. I am working more diligently on meditation and grounding techniques to get through the day. Working harder to apply various techniques from trauma-focused therapy and strategies gained over the years. First I am getting better on identifying the thought, catching it and releasing said thought before it ruminates. I … Continue reading Grounded
The Seascapechronicles 