This is the title of a new song by Jewel featuring Darius Rucker. I can relate a lot to this song. I can also report that with less on my plate I am recovering slowly. I am calm today as I prepare to enter IOP online this morning. I hope that I don’t have another … Continue reading No More Tears to Cry
Author: seascape228
All we need is just a little patience…
I took a major step backward yesterday. I pushed myself too hard the last couple days. I trained as an lacrosse official, too many obligations in general scheduled…and then yesterday occurred. It was a mix of lack of sleep from the night before (maybe 3 hours), trying to do IOP and work simultaneously, more work … Continue reading All we need is just a little patience…
SGs Workout Plan reboot 2022
I started this sometime late last year. I was unsuccessful. One of the main reasons for such was my later discovered sleep apnea. Second, I admittedly did not change my diet initially to the point where I was eating at a deficit, nor did I do my best to eat clean. Third, I stopped dead … Continue reading SGs Workout Plan reboot 2022
My not so little football player daughter
My daughter, Ella Caroline, we named ten years ago after her two great grandmothers. Grandma Ellen, my maternal grandmother, and Carol, Jason’s maternal grandmother. She has lived up to both her name sakes, and is the sweetest girl, always building others up on and off the field, helping little kids in school as a safety … Continue reading My not so little football player daughter
Back to the grind
I plan to work this coming week, at least virtually while I keep my IOP (Intensive Outpatient Schedule). Today I was trained to be a Lacrosse Referee. I’ve spoken before about stress and things piling up. I wanted to do this for ages. I am going to work on whittling down my commitments. Especially GAL … Continue reading Back to the grind
My Thinking Chair
Good morning lovelies. Last night I was exhausted. I slept from 9pm-4am. This might be the longest nights sleep if had in a month. I woke feeling rested and refreshed. Although my cpap randomly shut off the last hour of sleep but I didn’t notice. That is the longest duration of consistent sleep I have … Continue reading My Thinking Chair
Progress and relaxation
Some might be shocked to find out that I am very relaxed today. As well as very sleepy. I got the kids out the door on time, then attended IOP (Intensive Out Patient) in the early morning. It was a good group session, and even better, my IOP psychiatrist willingly upped my Vraylar prescription from … Continue reading Progress and relaxation
Dear mind, open up your eyes, see the sunny skies.
As the Beatles sing in Dear Prudence, Look around, Dear Prudence. let me see you smile…won’t you come out to play. Greet the brand new day. The sun is up, the sky is blue its beautiful and so are you. I am doing my best to live in the moment, take small steps toward recovery. … Continue reading Dear mind, open up your eyes, see the sunny skies.
The best and worst of times.
Man I love that book. I love Dickens in general and identify with dichotomies so well living with bipolar disorder. Today was one of those days that on any other occasion of having symptoms, would’ve sent me through the roof. I maintained, I performed, I rose to the challenge. I used every coping skill I … Continue reading The best and worst of times.
Humble Pie
A self proclaimed mental health advocate, director of programming at a local mental health non profit, mother of two elementary age girls, volunteer child advocate for Guardian Ad Litem, Navy spouse and former ombudsman, lover of everything history and literature, researcher, blogger, and writer. These are titles I would have never dreamed for myself 10 … Continue reading Humble Pie
Living with stigma and increasing awareness.
I used to be one of those people. That judged another person for reckless or risky behaviors. Never in a million years that I would become another statistic of mental illness. I used to love to watch Cops TV shows, Intervention, my 600 lbs life. I would look at these individuals in amazement, wondering how … Continue reading Living with stigma and increasing awareness.
Controlled chaos, a tale of returned hypomanic symptoms.
I have attempted with every ounce of my being to prevent the hypomanic symptoms, but it seems it has appeared, beyond my control. For those unfamiliar with hypomania it is classically defined in the DSM-5, as elevated mood, increased energy, rapid thinking, heightened anxiety, assertiveness, less need for sleep, irritability or inability to focus. Hypomania … Continue reading Controlled chaos, a tale of returned hypomanic symptoms.
Reassurance and relief
I continue to struggle as Monday August 29 marks two weeks of interrupted sleep patterns. Two days in from a recent cpap level adjustment, it is still very difficult to continue to sleep past the threshold of 4 hours of sleep using the machine. I continue to awake today at the lovely hour of 230pm. … Continue reading Reassurance and relief
Why dont you Sleep….just a little bit longer?
Cleverly, or maybe not so much, borrowed that line from the famous verse, Stay....just a little bit longer....say you will! Inserted my sleep issues into the line intentionally. Well. I wont bore you with too many details...Those who know me well know that when I do not get enough sleep I have the potential to … Continue reading Why dont you Sleep….just a little bit longer?
Another decade, and a little lady’s special day
In a blink, ten years have elapsed, and Ella turned 10 years old on Wednesday. Excitedly the night before, Jason and I assembled a ballon arch outside her door as she slept. I wrapped in birthday balloon paper several new books, some trendy new posters, and set out a rather large squishmallow to await her … Continue reading Another decade, and a little lady’s special day
The Seascapechronicles 