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Tag: anxiety
Lately I have felt increasingly helpless. As much as I try. As hard as I may want things to be different. I cannot change others. Deep down I know this. I can only make an impact to some degree. Especially when it comes to choices others in my life may chose. I can only help … Continue reading Silence
We had an awesome volunteer meeting for GAL last Thursday. Staff, Attorneys, the entire team of CAMS (Child Advocate Managers, that’s my job—a glorified social worker) and all of the volunteers we work with on our cases were in attendance. We met at the local pizza joint, the Mellow Mushroom. There were 30+ people there. … Continue reading Volunteer Meet N Greet- Guardian Ad Litem
We had another jam packed weekend. Beach on Saturday with friends, Lax coaching and Ella’s playing Goalkeeper, church, chores, gym twice this weekend, laundry, mommy’s office re-org, cooking, more laundry. Back to the grind tomorrow after so much family fun. Sometimes having so much going on makes the weekend seem so short. I had some … Continue reading Beach, Lax, Friends and not enough Sunscreen
I have been neglecting Seascape for some time, and need to change that. Just an update on life in general, it is exciting, grueling at times, work is incredibly time consuming, extracurricular activities for the kids is in full swing for the spring. Frankly, I am a little over done. So today, I scheduled a … Continue reading SGs mental health day
The past couple years for many people has brought tough times, instability, grief, heightened anxiety and turmoil. I am hopeful that this year, 2023, will be a year of new beginnings. I am nearly 39 years old. February 2023 marks the close out year of my thirties. When I reflect on my life I feel … Continue reading A new chapter begins, 2023
I put this into place some time ago. In the time since, I have lost 20 lbs, working out at the gym, and overall diet and sleep has vastly improved. I have continued to make strides and overall feel so much better and healthier. Looking forward to a good year of continued good health ahead. … Continue reading SGs workout plan 2023
It’s that time of year again. The holiday season is upon us. From now until New Year’s Day it can be daunting for anyone when it comes to family, stress, work, holiday preparation, and could cause anyone’s thoughts and mood to spiral. Living with bipolar disorder, every year I become increasing cautious and learn ways … Continue reading SGs guide to surviving the holidays
Last Saturday was a culmination of months of preparation. It was quite a sight to see so many gathered to raise awareness for mental health. We had politicians in attendance, news anchors covering the story, high school bands, cheerleaders, Jags mascot and cheerleaders, wellness fair, tons of participants. The event went off without a hitch, … Continue reading NAMIWalks Jacksonville 2022
I have been asked to tell my story, of breaking the stigma of mental illness in 30 seconds. There is an upcoming Jacksonville Iceman special event on mental health awareness upcoming. I was asked to tell my story, in 30 seconds or less. My face will be on a Jumbotron. They will shoot the stories … Continue reading 30 seconds or less, my story.
Self- worth, self-love, and self-respect. Somehow those words have escaped me. For 20 years my bestie would tease me that I am a chameleon, a pleaser, a shape-shifter or yes-woman. I don’t think I ever fully understood what she meant until my recent troubles. I admit that I lacked the insight to see that I … Continue reading R-E-S-P-E-C-T
I managed to keep it together for a rather busy day. I did some work early on. Got hazel out the door (Ella I found out later has strep throat). Met virtually with my psychiatrist and IOP in the morning. Took Ella to urgent care, attempted to fill her Rx of antibiotics twice. Took Ella … Continue reading Here we go again.
I took a major step backward yesterday. I pushed myself too hard the last couple days. I trained as an lacrosse official, too many obligations in general scheduled…and then yesterday occurred. It was a mix of lack of sleep from the night before (maybe 3 hours), trying to do IOP and work simultaneously, more work … Continue reading All we need is just a little patience…
I started this sometime late last year. I was unsuccessful. One of the main reasons for such was my later discovered sleep apnea. Second, I admittedly did not change my diet initially to the point where I was eating at a deficit, nor did I do my best to eat clean. Third, I stopped dead … Continue reading SGs Workout Plan reboot 2022
Man I love that book. I love Dickens in general and identify with dichotomies so well living with bipolar disorder. Today was one of those days that on any other occasion of having symptoms, would’ve sent me through the roof. I maintained, I performed, I rose to the challenge. I used every coping skill I … Continue reading The best and worst of times.
I have attempted with every ounce of my being to prevent the hypomanic symptoms, but it seems it has appeared, beyond my control. For those unfamiliar with hypomania it is classically defined in the DSM-5, as elevated mood, increased energy, rapid thinking, heightened anxiety, assertiveness, less need for sleep, irritability or inability to focus. Hypomania … Continue reading Controlled chaos, a tale of returned hypomanic symptoms.
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