Tag: faith

To be a mom….Mother’s Day 2023

To be a mom….Mother’s Day 2023

What it means to me to be a mom. It is the most rewarding, gut-wrenching, anxiety-ridden, and soul changing experience that i have come to love. My girls. Ella and Hazel. Made me in part who I am today. Their love, their sweet words, can pierce my deepest sorrow on a dark day. Their eyes, … Continue reading To be a mom….Mother’s Day 2023

Lonestar

Lonestar

This is the title of one of my favorite songs, by Norah Jones. Years ago, I would sing it as a lullaby to Ella as I rocked her to sleep. It is about searching for a sign in the sky, for a sign to shine down. Searching for the evasive Lonestar. I think about this … Continue reading Lonestar

Off to work I go

Off to work I go

Today I am returning to work, after two weeks of sick leave. Mixed feelings of nerves and excitement. The weekend was very relaxing and just what I needed. I am in a better place overall, the sleep still lighter average 6 hours, in addition to some day time napping. The anxiety is nearly non existent … Continue reading Off to work I go

SGs Real Talk and Self Care Saturday PII

SGs Real Talk and Self Care Saturday PII

Self- Talk is a large part of anyone’s life. Talking kindly to yourself is at the root of being brave. “We” constantly and subconsciously have thoughts running through our minds at any given time. I am learning to chuck the negative thoughts out the window. I stop myself in my tracks. The ones that cut … Continue reading SGs Real Talk and Self Care Saturday PII

Sarah’s Self care Saturday

Sarah’s Self care Saturday

I had an amazing day taking care of my needs on Saturday. It was much needed and happy that hubby took the kids to a birthday party. Started off the day early with a trip to Starbucks with the girls. We came home and I waved goodbye to the home and off to commence Sarah’s … Continue reading Sarah’s Self care Saturday

You are a Queen

Someone wise once told me, “ I have never heard of a Queen that has been walked over.” It took a few seconds for this statement to sink in. My immediate reflection would be at the time, well, that is certainly not me. My negative self talk and self-perception have always been powerful and strong … Continue reading You are a Queen

Steady as she goes.

Steady as she goes.

One of my favorite lyrics from a Dave Matthews song. I have struggled lately with my mental health. I have been proactive and somehow managing through a second week of consistent hypomania. It has not pervaded my work functioning or other responsibilities. Admittedly I have struggled to stay above water. I am constantly checking in, … Continue reading Steady as she goes.

Sarbear check-in

Sarbear check-in

Often times when I reflect on myself, it is struggle to identify the cause of continuous negative sense of self worth. With any analysis, the first instinct or reaction is to naturally say what or how did this happen? What changed, what caused this event or series of chain reactions? Our investigatory nature feeds on … Continue reading Sarbear check-in

Backwards progress

Backwards progress

Today was an extremely long, grueling day. Started the morning off with an early morning workout with a friend. Worked from home and took a break to stop by the church for a meeting with the priest to discuss some upcoming events and getting our marriage blessed. Jason will be officially confirmed Catholic on Saturday’s … Continue reading Backwards progress

Stations, Reconciliation and Palm Sunday: Catholic Fleet Week

Stations, Reconciliation and Palm Sunday: Catholic Fleet Week

Gearing up for an busy weekend of church activities. Weekend retreat, Reconciliation for Jason, Stations of the Cross Friday evening, Palm Sunday….to liken it to the US Navy…its Catholic Fleet Week. As we prepare to end the Lenten season and begin the busy Easter preparations, the Catholic Church is bustling. So are the Grants. Jason … Continue reading Stations, Reconciliation and Palm Sunday: Catholic Fleet Week

Silence

Silence

Lately I have felt increasingly helpless. As much as I try. As hard as I may want things to be different. I cannot change others. Deep down I know this. I can only make an impact to some degree. Especially when it comes to choices others in my life may chose. I can only help … Continue reading Silence

Beach, Lax, Friends and not enough Sunscreen

Beach, Lax, Friends and not enough Sunscreen

We had another jam packed weekend. Beach on Saturday with friends, Lax coaching and Ella’s playing Goalkeeper, church, chores, gym twice this weekend, laundry, mommy’s office re-org, cooking, more laundry. Back to the grind tomorrow after so much family fun. Sometimes having so much going on makes the weekend seem so short. I had some … Continue reading Beach, Lax, Friends and not enough Sunscreen

SGs mental health day

SGs mental health day

I have been neglecting Seascape for some time, and need to change that. Just an update on life in general, it is exciting, grueling at times, work is incredibly time consuming, extracurricular activities for the kids is in full swing for the spring. Frankly, I am a little over done. So today, I scheduled a … Continue reading SGs mental health day

A new chapter begins, 2023

A new chapter begins, 2023

The past couple years for many people has brought tough times, instability, grief, heightened anxiety and turmoil. I am hopeful that this year, 2023, will be a year of new beginnings. I am nearly 39 years old. February 2023 marks the close out year of my thirties. When I reflect on my life I feel … Continue reading A new chapter begins, 2023

SGs workout plan 2023

I put this into place some time ago. In the time since, I have lost 20 lbs, working out at the gym, and overall diet and sleep has vastly improved. I have continued to make strides and overall feel so much better and healthier. Looking forward to a good year of continued good health ahead. … Continue reading SGs workout plan 2023