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I am very excited to report that sleep patterns are tightening up, irritability, anxiety and other manic symptoms have subsided. I might have avoided a large drop off into a deep depression that usually occurs for me after a larger manic cycle as well. So far the medication overhaul and working with my psychiatrist outpatient … Continue reading Getting it done
This is the title of one of my favorite songs, by Norah Jones. Years ago, I would sing it as a lullaby to Ella as I rocked her to sleep. It is about searching for a sign in the sky, for a sign to shine down. Searching for the evasive Lonestar. I think about this … Continue reading Lonestar
Today I am returning to work, after two weeks of sick leave. Mixed feelings of nerves and excitement. The weekend was very relaxing and just what I needed. I am in a better place overall, the sleep still lighter average 6 hours, in addition to some day time napping. The anxiety is nearly non existent … Continue reading Off to work I go
Self- Talk is a large part of anyone’s life. Talking kindly to yourself is at the root of being brave. “We” constantly and subconsciously have thoughts running through our minds at any given time. I am learning to chuck the negative thoughts out the window. I stop myself in my tracks. The ones that cut … Continue reading SGs Real Talk and Self Care Saturday PII
Coaching is something that comes easy to me. I love working one on one with youths involved in sports. It is such an important outlet socially. It provides a sense of leadership, teamwork, and confidence. I have watched these pre-teen girl laxers grow and excel at the sport. The most impactful part of volunteering as … Continue reading Coach SG closes out another FIGL Lax season
I mentioned in a previous post, equating my current state of affairs as being on a non-stop roller coaster that I couldn’t get off. I will say that today, I liken my moods more to a theme park. I read a quote that struck me: “There will be good days, bad days, light days and … Continue reading Theme Park
I will let others know as a precursor to the material in this post—It is heavy, and could be triggering. The quote above is one I chose today, a quote on any other day would not strike me. I chose it from a bowl in front of me to take one—at a woman’s funeral service … Continue reading “Truth never damages a cause that is just”-Mahatma Gandhi
When I think about this or that occurrence in my life, I have not ever equated such with a brave choice or necessarily the right decision. Seeing other people around me being brave made me want to be as courageous. As days pass, I find myself going through the motions, taking the next step. I … Continue reading Braver than you know
I had an amazing day taking care of my needs on Saturday. It was much needed and happy that hubby took the kids to a birthday party. Started off the day early with a trip to Starbucks with the girls. We came home and I waved goodbye to the home and off to commence Sarah’s … Continue reading Sarah’s Self care Saturday
Someone wise once told me, “ I have never heard of a Queen that has been walked over.” It took a few seconds for this statement to sink in. My immediate reflection would be at the time, well, that is certainly not me. My negative self talk and self-perception have always been powerful and strong … Continue reading You are a Queen
One of my favorite lyrics from a Dave Matthews song. I have struggled lately with my mental health. I have been proactive and somehow managing through a second week of consistent hypomania. It has not pervaded my work functioning or other responsibilities. Admittedly I have struggled to stay above water. I am constantly checking in, … Continue reading Steady as she goes.
Yesterday we celebrated Easter Vigil at St. Catherine of Sienna Church. Jason and I have been attending RCIA since Fall 2022. Today was an incredibly extraordinary day not just because of Jason’s Confirmation and my re-entrance into the church after many years. In the Catholic faith this Mass is sacred and recognizes and reaffirms our … Continue reading Easter Vigil and Jason’s Confirmation
Often times when I reflect on myself, it is struggle to identify the cause of continuous negative sense of self worth. With any analysis, the first instinct or reaction is to naturally say what or how did this happen? What changed, what caused this event or series of chain reactions? Our investigatory nature feeds on … Continue reading Sarbear check-in
Lately I have felt increasingly helpless. As much as I try. As hard as I may want things to be different. I cannot change others. Deep down I know this. I can only make an impact to some degree. Especially when it comes to choices others in my life may chose. I can only help … Continue reading Silence
We had an awesome volunteer meeting for GAL last Thursday. Staff, Attorneys, the entire team of CAMS (Child Advocate Managers, that’s my job—a glorified social worker) and all of the volunteers we work with on our cases were in attendance. We met at the local pizza joint, the Mellow Mushroom. There were 30+ people there. … Continue reading Volunteer Meet N Greet- Guardian Ad Litem
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