The world in my seascape. The chronicles of my world.
Tag: freedom
Often times when I reflect on myself, it is struggle to identify the cause of continuous negative sense of self worth. With any analysis, the first instinct or reaction is to naturally say what or how did this happen? What changed, what caused this event or series of chain reactions? Our investigatory nature feeds on … Continue reading Sarbear check-in
Lately I have felt increasingly helpless. As much as I try. As hard as I may want things to be different. I cannot change others. Deep down I know this. I can only make an impact to some degree. Especially when it comes to choices others in my life may chose. I can only help … Continue reading Silence
We had an awesome volunteer meeting for GAL last Thursday. Staff, Attorneys, the entire team of CAMS (Child Advocate Managers, that’s my job—a glorified social worker) and all of the volunteers we work with on our cases were in attendance. We met at the local pizza joint, the Mellow Mushroom. There were 30+ people there. … Continue reading Volunteer Meet N Greet- Guardian Ad Litem
We had another jam packed weekend. Beach on Saturday with friends, Lax coaching and Ella’s playing Goalkeeper, church, chores, gym twice this weekend, laundry, mommy’s office re-org, cooking, more laundry. Back to the grind tomorrow after so much family fun. Sometimes having so much going on makes the weekend seem so short. I had some … Continue reading Beach, Lax, Friends and not enough Sunscreen
I have been neglecting Seascape for some time, and need to change that. Just an update on life in general, it is exciting, grueling at times, work is incredibly time consuming, extracurricular activities for the kids is in full swing for the spring. Frankly, I am a little over done. So today, I scheduled a … Continue reading SGs mental health day
I put this into place some time ago. In the time since, I have lost 20 lbs, working out at the gym, and overall diet and sleep has vastly improved. I have continued to make strides and overall feel so much better and healthier. Looking forward to a good year of continued good health ahead. … Continue reading SGs workout plan 2023
It’s that time of year again. The holiday season is upon us. From now until New Year’s Day it can be daunting for anyone when it comes to family, stress, work, holiday preparation, and could cause anyone’s thoughts and mood to spiral. Living with bipolar disorder, every year I become increasing cautious and learn ways … Continue reading SGs guide to surviving the holidays
Since my last update, I have been busy with the new job. I am taking over a caseload shortly and have been doing many hours of training and Court observation. My office is cozy and put together, co-workers are amazing and supportive. My health has improved lately. I am sleeping almost every night, throughout the … Continue reading Steps forward
Today was a turning point in my current life, when I left NAMI Jacksonville as Program Director. I was nervous for the week to conclude, and hoping for the best with new horizons ahead of me. Trepidatiously I walked myself downtown to work early this morning. My last time walking into that beautiful building of … Continue reading The last day at NAMI Jax Office, a bittersweet goodbye.
I have been asked to tell my story, of breaking the stigma of mental illness in 30 seconds. There is an upcoming Jacksonville Iceman special event on mental health awareness upcoming. I was asked to tell my story, in 30 seconds or less. My face will be on a Jumbotron. They will shoot the stories … Continue reading 30 seconds or less, my story.
Self- worth, self-love, and self-respect. Somehow those words have escaped me. For 20 years my bestie would tease me that I am a chameleon, a pleaser, a shape-shifter or yes-woman. I don’t think I ever fully understood what she meant until my recent troubles. I admit that I lacked the insight to see that I … Continue reading R-E-S-P-E-C-T
This is the title of one of my favorite Russian novels from the Silver Age, “turn of the 20th century”. The book is all about self-discovery. In line with that I have recently in my own struggles worked on processing my emotions through—willingness. I have sat with uncomfortable emotions and allowed myself to feel them. … Continue reading The Key to Happiness
I started this sometime late last year. I was unsuccessful. One of the main reasons for such was my later discovered sleep apnea. Second, I admittedly did not change my diet initially to the point where I was eating at a deficit, nor did I do my best to eat clean. Third, I stopped dead … Continue reading SGs Workout Plan reboot 2022
Today, I half-heartedly committed to an outreach opportunity. After coaching Ellas game in the morning, I headed straight to the event. In a state of obligation. Begrudgingly already upset that I had overwritten and booked up my weekend. What happened took me by complete surprise. I reconnected with myself, through the various speakers at this … Continue reading My second chance.
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