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Tag: Peace
This is the title of one of my favorite songs, by Norah Jones. Years ago, I would sing it as a lullaby to Ella as I rocked her to sleep. It is about searching for a sign in the sky, for a sign to shine down. Searching for the evasive Lonestar. I think about this … Continue reading Lonestar
Today I am returning to work, after two weeks of sick leave. Mixed feelings of nerves and excitement. The weekend was very relaxing and just what I needed. I am in a better place overall, the sleep still lighter average 6 hours, in addition to some day time napping. The anxiety is nearly non existent … Continue reading Off to work I go
Self- Talk is a large part of anyone’s life. Talking kindly to yourself is at the root of being brave. “We” constantly and subconsciously have thoughts running through our minds at any given time. I am learning to chuck the negative thoughts out the window. I stop myself in my tracks. The ones that cut … Continue reading SGs Real Talk and Self Care Saturday PII
I mentioned in a previous post, equating my current state of affairs as being on a non-stop roller coaster that I couldn’t get off. I will say that today, I liken my moods more to a theme park. I read a quote that struck me: “There will be good days, bad days, light days and … Continue reading Theme Park
Often times when I reflect on myself, it is struggle to identify the cause of continuous negative sense of self worth. With any analysis, the first instinct or reaction is to naturally say what or how did this happen? What changed, what caused this event or series of chain reactions? Our investigatory nature feeds on … Continue reading Sarbear check-in
Lately I have felt increasingly helpless. As much as I try. As hard as I may want things to be different. I cannot change others. Deep down I know this. I can only make an impact to some degree. Especially when it comes to choices others in my life may chose. I can only help … Continue reading Silence
We had an awesome volunteer meeting for GAL last Thursday. Staff, Attorneys, the entire team of CAMS (Child Advocate Managers, that’s my job—a glorified social worker) and all of the volunteers we work with on our cases were in attendance. We met at the local pizza joint, the Mellow Mushroom. There were 30+ people there. … Continue reading Volunteer Meet N Greet- Guardian Ad Litem
We had another jam packed weekend. Beach on Saturday with friends, Lax coaching and Ella’s playing Goalkeeper, church, chores, gym twice this weekend, laundry, mommy’s office re-org, cooking, more laundry. Back to the grind tomorrow after so much family fun. Sometimes having so much going on makes the weekend seem so short. I had some … Continue reading Beach, Lax, Friends and not enough Sunscreen
The past couple years for many people has brought tough times, instability, grief, heightened anxiety and turmoil. I am hopeful that this year, 2023, will be a year of new beginnings. I am nearly 39 years old. February 2023 marks the close out year of my thirties. When I reflect on my life I feel … Continue reading A new chapter begins, 2023
It’s that time of year again. The holiday season is upon us. From now until New Year’s Day it can be daunting for anyone when it comes to family, stress, work, holiday preparation, and could cause anyone’s thoughts and mood to spiral. Living with bipolar disorder, every year I become increasing cautious and learn ways … Continue reading SGs guide to surviving the holidays
Self- worth, self-love, and self-respect. Somehow those words have escaped me. For 20 years my bestie would tease me that I am a chameleon, a pleaser, a shape-shifter or yes-woman. I don’t think I ever fully understood what she meant until my recent troubles. I admit that I lacked the insight to see that I … Continue reading R-E-S-P-E-C-T
I took a major step backward yesterday. I pushed myself too hard the last couple days. I trained as an lacrosse official, too many obligations in general scheduled…and then yesterday occurred. It was a mix of lack of sleep from the night before (maybe 3 hours), trying to do IOP and work simultaneously, more work … Continue reading All we need is just a little patience…
I started this sometime late last year. I was unsuccessful. One of the main reasons for such was my later discovered sleep apnea. Second, I admittedly did not change my diet initially to the point where I was eating at a deficit, nor did I do my best to eat clean. Third, I stopped dead … Continue reading SGs Workout Plan reboot 2022
Last night I had a scheduled sleepover with Mayo Clinic for a long-awaited sleep study. I arrived in a tizzy at the Basso Building on the West Campus of Mayo Clinic with two giant bags, a body pillow, and a fuzzy Ugg blanket. Along with a full day of school orientation for the kiddos, remote … Continue reading Dream On
I have grown accustomed to sharing my struggles with mental health over the years. Whether as a outreach presenter with NAMI sharing my story with various types of audiences, or writing a brief post here and there on social media. Whenever May rolls around every year, I am always inclined to share with others, what … Continue reading MAY. Mental Health Awareness Month, obligatory testimony.
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