The world in my seascape. The chronicles of my world.
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This is the title of one of my favorite songs, by Norah Jones. Years ago, I would sing it as a lullaby to Ella as I rocked her to sleep. It is about searching for a sign in the sky, for a sign to shine down. Searching for the evasive Lonestar. I think about this … Continue reading Lonestar
Self- Talk is a large part of anyone’s life. Talking kindly to yourself is at the root of being brave. “We” constantly and subconsciously have thoughts running through our minds at any given time. I am learning to chuck the negative thoughts out the window. I stop myself in my tracks. The ones that cut … Continue reading SGs Real Talk and Self Care Saturday PII
Coaching is something that comes easy to me. I love working one on one with youths involved in sports. It is such an important outlet socially. It provides a sense of leadership, teamwork, and confidence. I have watched these pre-teen girl laxers grow and excel at the sport. The most impactful part of volunteering as … Continue reading Coach SG closes out another FIGL Lax season
I mentioned in a previous post, equating my current state of affairs as being on a non-stop roller coaster that I couldn’t get off. I will say that today, I liken my moods more to a theme park. I read a quote that struck me: “There will be good days, bad days, light days and … Continue reading Theme Park
When I think about this or that occurrence in my life, I have not ever equated such with a brave choice or necessarily the right decision. Seeing other people around me being brave made me want to be as courageous. As days pass, I find myself going through the motions, taking the next step. I … Continue reading Braver than you know
Someone wise once told me, “ I have never heard of a Queen that has been walked over.” It took a few seconds for this statement to sink in. My immediate reflection would be at the time, well, that is certainly not me. My negative self talk and self-perception have always been powerful and strong … Continue reading You are a Queen
One of my favorite lyrics from a Dave Matthews song. I have struggled lately with my mental health. I have been proactive and somehow managing through a second week of consistent hypomania. It has not pervaded my work functioning or other responsibilities. Admittedly I have struggled to stay above water. I am constantly checking in, … Continue reading Steady as she goes.
Yesterday we celebrated Easter Vigil at St. Catherine of Sienna Church. Jason and I have been attending RCIA since Fall 2022. Today was an incredibly extraordinary day not just because of Jason’s Confirmation and my re-entrance into the church after many years. In the Catholic faith this Mass is sacred and recognizes and reaffirms our … Continue reading Easter Vigil and Jason’s Confirmation
Often times when I reflect on myself, it is struggle to identify the cause of continuous negative sense of self worth. With any analysis, the first instinct or reaction is to naturally say what or how did this happen? What changed, what caused this event or series of chain reactions? Our investigatory nature feeds on … Continue reading Sarbear check-in
Lately I have felt increasingly helpless. As much as I try. As hard as I may want things to be different. I cannot change others. Deep down I know this. I can only make an impact to some degree. Especially when it comes to choices others in my life may chose. I can only help … Continue reading Silence
We had another jam packed weekend. Beach on Saturday with friends, Lax coaching and Ella’s playing Goalkeeper, church, chores, gym twice this weekend, laundry, mommy’s office re-org, cooking, more laundry. Back to the grind tomorrow after so much family fun. Sometimes having so much going on makes the weekend seem so short. I had some … Continue reading Beach, Lax, Friends and not enough Sunscreen
I have been neglecting Seascape for some time, and need to change that. Just an update on life in general, it is exciting, grueling at times, work is incredibly time consuming, extracurricular activities for the kids is in full swing for the spring. Frankly, I am a little over done. So today, I scheduled a … Continue reading SGs mental health day
Today was Ella’s drama Winter Play Performance of “The Runaway Snowman.” Ella’s role was Robin, the lead role. She played the girl that befriends Happy, the Snowman. Ella, cast and chorus did an amazing job. She sang, acted and danced her little heart out. I was overjoyed and laughed the entire time watching Ella on … Continue reading Ella’s Winter Play: The Runaway Snowman
It’s that time of year again. The holiday season is upon us. From now until New Year’s Day it can be daunting for anyone when it comes to family, stress, work, holiday preparation, and could cause anyone’s thoughts and mood to spiral. Living with bipolar disorder, every year I become increasing cautious and learn ways … Continue reading SGs guide to surviving the holidays
Since my last update, I have been busy with the new job. I am taking over a caseload shortly and have been doing many hours of training and Court observation. My office is cozy and put together, co-workers are amazing and supportive. My health has improved lately. I am sleeping almost every night, throughout the … Continue reading Steps forward
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