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Tag: stigma
Historically, the fall hits hard. Between political and worldly unrest, consistent media influences, my full plate, balancing home and family time, and then volunteer duties. I have little time to consider how this affects my mental health. I am trying my best to chip away at the old block, one piece at a time. Not … Continue reading The fall back
Words have the power to elevate or destroy. As Joseph Conrad once said, “There is a power in the spoken word…and a word comes far—deals destruction through time as the bullets flying through space.” There have been times in my life where words injured me, at times I conceived beyond repair. Now, I do not … Continue reading Words
The girls and I had a few days solo, while Jason flew back to Maryland to see family. Last weekend we crammed as much as possible into the weekend. Reminiscent of old times when it was just the three of us for long stints. The girls had a Homecoming Pep Rally, Homecoming game, we volunteered … Continue reading Girls Weekend
Join me on September 23, 2023 at the Winston YMCA (221 Riverside Ave) for NAMIWalks!! from 8am-12pm #Together4MH #NAMIJax I joined NAMI ( National Alliance on Mental Illness ) 15 years ago, when I found a NAMI support group as a young adult struggling with my mental health. I have remained active with the non-profit … Continue reading NAMIWalks 2023
I have not felt inspired as of late to write. Partly due life getting in the way, the other being stuck in my own head. I awoke early this morning and felt the urge to do so. I have been on a doubled dose on one of my medications to manage my mental health condition … Continue reading Spark
Spring, 2009: The infamous man, aka Papa Joe to our girls. This picture is a wonderful memory with my Dad, on the deck of our old family home in Maryland. The backdrop of the Potomac River, just as I remember it. Now our family living in Florida, I do not get to visit him and … Continue reading To my dad on Father’s Day
What it means to me to be a mom. It is the most rewarding, gut-wrenching, anxiety-ridden, and soul changing experience that i have come to love. My girls. Ella and Hazel. Made me in part who I am today. Their love, their sweet words, can pierce my deepest sorrow on a dark day. Their eyes, … Continue reading To be a mom….Mother’s Day 2023
I am very excited to report that sleep patterns are tightening up, irritability, anxiety and other manic symptoms have subsided. I might have avoided a large drop off into a deep depression that usually occurs for me after a larger manic cycle as well. So far the medication overhaul and working with my psychiatrist outpatient … Continue reading Getting it done
This is the title of one of my favorite songs, by Norah Jones. Years ago, I would sing it as a lullaby to Ella as I rocked her to sleep. It is about searching for a sign in the sky, for a sign to shine down. Searching for the evasive Lonestar. I think about this … Continue reading Lonestar
Today I am returning to work, after two weeks of sick leave. Mixed feelings of nerves and excitement. The weekend was very relaxing and just what I needed. I am in a better place overall, the sleep still lighter average 6 hours, in addition to some day time napping. The anxiety is nearly non existent … Continue reading Off to work I go
Self- Talk is a large part of anyone’s life. Talking kindly to yourself is at the root of being brave. “We” constantly and subconsciously have thoughts running through our minds at any given time. I am learning to chuck the negative thoughts out the window. I stop myself in my tracks. The ones that cut … Continue reading SGs Real Talk and Self Care Saturday PII
I believe the mind is capable of both extraordinary things and surprises you as well with its ability to conform and process new information. I also believe these abilities can be veiled in negative consequences. For me one of those blessings/curses is my gift of a decent memory capacity, especially for long term memorization. As … Continue reading Identifying flaws and holes in time.
Coaching is something that comes easy to me. I love working one on one with youths involved in sports. It is such an important outlet socially. It provides a sense of leadership, teamwork, and confidence. I have watched these pre-teen girl laxers grow and excel at the sport. The most impactful part of volunteering as … Continue reading Coach SG closes out another FIGL Lax season
I will let others know as a precursor to the material in this post—It is heavy, and could be triggering. The quote above is one I chose today, a quote on any other day would not strike me. I chose it from a bowl in front of me to take one—at a woman’s funeral service … Continue reading “Truth never damages a cause that is just”-Mahatma Gandhi
When I think about this or that occurrence in my life, I have not ever equated such with a brave choice or necessarily the right decision. Seeing other people around me being brave made me want to be as courageous. As days pass, I find myself going through the motions, taking the next step. I … Continue reading Braver than you know
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