Winter is Coming, I’m Ready!

I felt the need to share the pre-Christmas Joy around the house that Jason so lovingly put it, “It looks like Christmas threw up in our Living Room.” Every excuse that comes about to decorate for a season I seemingly emphasize the urgency to do so more and more impulsively, like a SG Hurricane of stuff and things. It cannot be attended to methodically or planned. It must happen all at once when my mind is made up. I have always had mentality to some degree, whether an inner working of my own anxieties or personality. Black or white. Stop and go, all or nothing. Irregardless, winter is near in Florida. It is 46 degrees and a fire is blazing in the fireplace as I sit merrily gazing at the fruits of my winter wonderland.

All the holiday cheer now all encompassing….I feel at ease after busting my butt to decorate over the course of several hours. I find myself naturally slowing down from my efforts, after a long extended trip to see family in Maryland. Returning to normalcy, to the familiar. To routine, I welcome and am reveling in my environment. I am looking forward to escaoing in some NAMI work catch up. In all my excitement I gladly returned to my role as a NAMI support group facilitator. In the midst of some challenges, i.e. having to replace our fridge several days prior to thanksgiving, I am okay with just about anything thrown my way. Nobody is gong to rain on my parade. With all this holiday cheer however, to put it in to perspective….I must remember to BALANCE. To keep in mind keeping myself well. Taking my medication yes, practicing my coping skills check, working on my relationships, but most of all….it is humbling to recognize that life is delicate, here is my Christmas-y world, I am happy and healthy, let me reiterate that..I am Happy…I am Healthy. I am GRATEFUL and Thankful for what I have. As Thanksgiving approaches, I want readers to take away one thing. Not my brick and brack or things surrounding me. But THIS life, the life I am living. I cherish my family and friends this holiday season. But god damn, I cherish Myself, and I am PROUD of what I have accomplished. This life, is good, no this is MY Wonderful Life.