At the current moment, as I sludge my way through the day. I want to use my reasonable and logical side that is floating away somewhere. I have relied too much on my emotional mind where my feelings have been in the drivers seat. My first inclination is to respond, sometimes without enough thought behind it. Even in times of relative stability. I am too bogged down at the moment. My goal this week, is to balance my wise and emotional mind. In some ways I go into self preservation mode. I crave the balance right now that is not happening.

Personality wise I am a people pleaser, an extrovert, a chameleon, a Yes Woman. I need to establish more clearly defined boundaries with friends, family etc. learn to say no. Not to overwhelm myself. I have plenty of coping skills s but do I practice these ? Not nearly to where I need to be.

I will turn to my family , my faith and friends for some support. But otherwise I need to do this on my own. With time. Smaller steps even. Forgive myself, forgive the past. And moved forward day by day. I will use some of the dbt techniques from group to communicate my needs in a logical way. I will continue to stay in the present and not revisit the past without a professional. I will not worry about what the future holds. I hope to stay focused on these things and finally recover from this terrible fog in my head.

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