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I love NAMI, (National Alliance of Mental Illness), I love everything about the organization that I have been apart of for the last 15 years. Today and yesterday I spent the time at the FL state conference, with my colleagues and staff. We had a blast. It has been kind of like a mini vacation … Continue reading NAMI FL Conference, Sept 16-17th Orlando, FL
Today I am exhausted from my day, generally taking on too much. Don’t have too much to report. Other than attending the nami Florida state conference this weekend:) Stoked but tired. I hope the change of scenery will be beneficial. I’ve got my bags packed, and ready to leave on a jet plane 💕
Just a general update. It was a challenging day. I had an early staff meeting in the office. All four of us carpooled to school and work. So I was at about 5 different places today in Jacksonville, Fl. I also gave a NAMI introduction presentation or "NAMI 101" presentation to the staff of PGA … Continue reading Off to work I go….
This is the title of one of my favorite Russian novels from the Silver Age, “turn of the 20th century”. The book is all about self-discovery. In line with that I have recently in my own struggles worked on processing my emotions through—willingness. I have sat with uncomfortable emotions and allowed myself to feel them. … Continue reading The Key to Happiness
Awoke this morning to my cpap machine shutting off on its own, always a wonderful way to start the day. I slept a few hours more without the machine. I awoke again peacefully and rested. I began to journal as I usually do in the early hours of the morning, wrote the date and stopped … Continue reading A day of remembrance and reflection
At the current moment, as I sludge my way through the day. I want to use my reasonable and logical side that is floating away somewhere. I have relied too much on my emotional mind where my feelings have been in the drivers seat. My first inclination is to respond, sometimes without enough thought behind … Continue reading Take back control
Yesterday I met a dear friend for coffee. Originally I met to re-connect after I had been not so nice via email as the height of my symptoms a couple weeks ago. She is a woman that I respect and the last person I intended to witness my abruptness. She inspires me, for she owns … Continue reading Acts of gratitude and rising to the challenge
This is the title of a new song by Jewel featuring Darius Rucker. I can relate a lot to this song. I can also report that with less on my plate I am recovering slowly. I am calm today as I prepare to enter IOP online this morning. I hope that I don’t have another … Continue reading No More Tears to Cry
I took a major step backward yesterday. I pushed myself too hard the last couple days. I trained as an lacrosse official, too many obligations in general scheduled…and then yesterday occurred. It was a mix of lack of sleep from the night before (maybe 3 hours), trying to do IOP and work simultaneously, more work … Continue reading All we need is just a little patience…
I started this sometime late last year. I was unsuccessful. One of the main reasons for such was my later discovered sleep apnea. Second, I admittedly did not change my diet initially to the point where I was eating at a deficit, nor did I do my best to eat clean. Third, I stopped dead … Continue reading SGs Workout Plan reboot 2022
My daughter, Ella Caroline, we named ten years ago after her two great grandmothers. Grandma Ellen, my maternal grandmother, and Carol, Jason’s maternal grandmother. She has lived up to both her name sakes, and is the sweetest girl, always building others up on and off the field, helping little kids in school as a safety … Continue reading My not so little football player daughter
I plan to work this coming week, at least virtually while I keep my IOP (Intensive Outpatient Schedule). Today I was trained to be a Lacrosse Referee. I’ve spoken before about stress and things piling up. I wanted to do this for ages. I am going to work on whittling down my commitments. Especially GAL … Continue reading Back to the grind
Good morning lovelies. Last night I was exhausted. I slept from 9pm-4am. This might be the longest nights sleep if had in a month. I woke feeling rested and refreshed. Although my cpap randomly shut off the last hour of sleep but I didn’t notice. That is the longest duration of consistent sleep I have … Continue reading My Thinking Chair
Some might be shocked to find out that I am very relaxed today. As well as very sleepy. I got the kids out the door on time, then attended IOP (Intensive Out Patient) in the early morning. It was a good group session, and even better, my IOP psychiatrist willingly upped my Vraylar prescription from … Continue reading Progress and relaxation
As the Beatles sing in Dear Prudence, Look around, Dear Prudence. let me see you smile…won’t you come out to play. Greet the brand new day. The sun is up, the sky is blue its beautiful and so are you. I am doing my best to live in the moment, take small steps toward recovery. … Continue reading Dear mind, open up your eyes, see the sunny skies.
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