I have recently with getting more and more restful sleep have naturally awoken early in the morning. Historically in the mornings, I have always been a morning person rather than a night owl. When I was young at the first sound of activity, I would get so excited to wake up and spend time with … Continue reading Peaceful mornings, my own space.
Tag: bipolar disorder
Acts of gratitude and rising to the challenge
Yesterday I met a dear friend for coffee. Originally I met to re-connect after I had been not so nice via email as the height of my symptoms a couple weeks ago. She is a woman that I respect and the last person I intended to witness my abruptness. She inspires me, for she owns … Continue reading Acts of gratitude and rising to the challenge
All we need is just a little patience…
I took a major step backward yesterday. I pushed myself too hard the last couple days. I trained as an lacrosse official, too many obligations in general scheduled…and then yesterday occurred. It was a mix of lack of sleep from the night before (maybe 3 hours), trying to do IOP and work simultaneously, more work … Continue reading All we need is just a little patience…
SGs Workout Plan reboot 2022
I started this sometime late last year. I was unsuccessful. One of the main reasons for such was my later discovered sleep apnea. Second, I admittedly did not change my diet initially to the point where I was eating at a deficit, nor did I do my best to eat clean. Third, I stopped dead … Continue reading SGs Workout Plan reboot 2022
The best and worst of times.
Man I love that book. I love Dickens in general and identify with dichotomies so well living with bipolar disorder. Today was one of those days that on any other occasion of having symptoms, would’ve sent me through the roof. I maintained, I performed, I rose to the challenge. I used every coping skill I … Continue reading The best and worst of times.
Controlled chaos, a tale of returned hypomanic symptoms.
I have attempted with every ounce of my being to prevent the hypomanic symptoms, but it seems it has appeared, beyond my control. For those unfamiliar with hypomania it is classically defined in the DSM-5, as elevated mood, increased energy, rapid thinking, heightened anxiety, assertiveness, less need for sleep, irritability or inability to focus. Hypomania … Continue reading Controlled chaos, a tale of returned hypomanic symptoms.
Reassurance and relief
I continue to struggle as Monday August 29 marks two weeks of interrupted sleep patterns. Two days in from a recent cpap level adjustment, it is still very difficult to continue to sleep past the threshold of 4 hours of sleep using the machine. I continue to awake today at the lovely hour of 230pm. … Continue reading Reassurance and relief
Just the way you are
Reflecting on one of my favorite songs by Bruno Mars: Cause you're amazingJust the way you areAnd when you smileThe whole world stops and stares for a while'Cause girl, you're amazingJust the way you are We are conditioned to automatically self-reject compliments, positivity or positive reinforcement. The belief to be perfect and never measuring up. … Continue reading Just the way you are
Hurry up and wait
I have had to make the difficult decision to defer my graduate school start till next semester. Many factors led to this decision, mostly due to a defaulted loan that I could not pay in full before registration. I hope to not only have the loan paid by the spring, but also to be mentally … Continue reading Hurry up and wait
NAMI Connection Facilitator Training Spring’22
I recall that moment in 2008, when I first attended a NAMI Connection Support group. In that moment I was nervous to step foot into a mental health support group, not even considering sharing with strangers my own struggles. I lived in Southern Maryland with my parents at the time. I was living in recovery … Continue reading NAMI Connection Facilitator Training Spring’22
Chilly and Productive in NE Florida
It is a dreary, rainy day here in Northeast Florida. Despite the weekend’s crummy weather, I am in good spirits, and rather productive for a Sunday morning. This weekend I caught up on several loads of clean, unfolded laundry, cleaned several rooms in the house (including the massive dumpster fire of Hazel’s room), cooked a … Continue reading Chilly and Productive in NE Florida
SG gets her groove back
Well, I am making strides to do so. Some friends and family know that I was struggling with my mental health recently Aug-Sept. I have felt more balanced and generally more focused lately than before. With some perspective I know that I was hypomanic moving into full blown mania during those weeks, accompanied with high … Continue reading SG gets her groove back
The Seascapechronicles 