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I managed to keep it together for a rather busy day. I did some work early on. Got hazel out the door (Ella I found out later has strep throat). Met virtually with my psychiatrist and IOP in the morning. Took Ella to urgent care, attempted to fill her Rx of antibiotics twice. Took Ella … Continue reading Here we go again.
This is the title of one of my favorite Russian novels from the Silver Age, “turn of the 20th century”. The book is all about self-discovery. In line with that I have recently in my own struggles worked on processing my emotions through—willingness. I have sat with uncomfortable emotions and allowed myself to feel them. … Continue reading The Key to Happiness
Yesterday I met a dear friend for coffee. Originally I met to re-connect after I had been not so nice via email as the height of my symptoms a couple weeks ago. She is a woman that I respect and the last person I intended to witness my abruptness. She inspires me, for she owns … Continue reading Acts of gratitude and rising to the challenge
I took a major step backward yesterday. I pushed myself too hard the last couple days. I trained as an lacrosse official, too many obligations in general scheduled…and then yesterday occurred. It was a mix of lack of sleep from the night before (maybe 3 hours), trying to do IOP and work simultaneously, more work … Continue reading All we need is just a little patience…
I started this sometime late last year. I was unsuccessful. One of the main reasons for such was my later discovered sleep apnea. Second, I admittedly did not change my diet initially to the point where I was eating at a deficit, nor did I do my best to eat clean. Third, I stopped dead … Continue reading SGs Workout Plan reboot 2022
Man I love that book. I love Dickens in general and identify with dichotomies so well living with bipolar disorder. Today was one of those days that on any other occasion of having symptoms, would’ve sent me through the roof. I maintained, I performed, I rose to the challenge. I used every coping skill I … Continue reading The best and worst of times.
I have attempted with every ounce of my being to prevent the hypomanic symptoms, but it seems it has appeared, beyond my control. For those unfamiliar with hypomania it is classically defined in the DSM-5, as elevated mood, increased energy, rapid thinking, heightened anxiety, assertiveness, less need for sleep, irritability or inability to focus. Hypomania … Continue reading Controlled chaos, a tale of returned hypomanic symptoms.
I continue to struggle as Monday August 29 marks two weeks of interrupted sleep patterns. Two days in from a recent cpap level adjustment, it is still very difficult to continue to sleep past the threshold of 4 hours of sleep using the machine. I continue to awake today at the lovely hour of 230pm. … Continue reading Reassurance and relief
Last night I had a scheduled sleepover with Mayo Clinic for a long-awaited sleep study. I arrived in a tizzy at the Basso Building on the West Campus of Mayo Clinic with two giant bags, a body pillow, and a fuzzy Ugg blanket. Along with a full day of school orientation for the kiddos, remote … Continue reading Dream On
Reflecting on one of my favorite songs by Bruno Mars: Cause you're amazingJust the way you areAnd when you smileThe whole world stops and stares for a while'Cause girl, you're amazingJust the way you are We are conditioned to automatically self-reject compliments, positivity or positive reinforcement. The belief to be perfect and never measuring up. … Continue reading Just the way you are
I have had to make the difficult decision to defer my graduate school start till next semester. Many factors led to this decision, mostly due to a defaulted loan that I could not pay in full before registration. I hope to not only have the loan paid by the spring, but also to be mentally … Continue reading Hurry up and wait
I hesitantly and begrudgingly signed myself up for Women’s Lacrosse league, in Jacksonville for the summer. The league runs for 6 weeks, last Tuesday was the first week of meeting. This women’s league is for recent hs/college grads or post college graduates. Given its been almost 17 years since I last saved a crucial lacrosse … Continue reading Lax Box FL adult League= SG back in the cage
I have grown accustomed to sharing my struggles with mental health over the years. Whether as a outreach presenter with NAMI sharing my story with various types of audiences, or writing a brief post here and there on social media. Whenever May rolls around every year, I am always inclined to share with others, what … Continue reading MAY. Mental Health Awareness Month, obligatory testimony.
Spent the later half of the Friday evening volunteering with Guardian Ad Litem with their annual fundraiser, this year’s theme mimicked a Wizard of Oz theme toting, “There’s no place like home.” I arrived to the empty factory, that had been transformed to a fancy venue space called the Glass Factory, in downtown Jacksonville. A … Continue reading There’s no place like home—GAL Fundraiser
I recall that moment in 2008, when I first attended a NAMI Connection Support group. In that moment I was nervous to step foot into a mental health support group, not even considering sharing with strangers my own struggles. I lived in Southern Maryland with my parents at the time. I was living in recovery … Continue reading NAMI Connection Facilitator Training Spring’22
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